Kicked out of her apartment, Natalia wanders New York City, crashing a family’s holiday meal, staying at a men's shelter, and dragging everyone down with her. An ode to anxiety and New York.
Kicked out of her apartment, Natalia wanders New York City, crashing a family’s holiday meal, staying at a men's shelter, and dragging everyone down with her. An ode to anxiety and New York.
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